With all my heart

2011-08-23T11:48:00.000-07:00

A strong front was what I acted in front of others . I never like people knowning that I'm sad or maybe just because I dont wanna let others worry . You never know how much I'm going thru and how much I wanted someone who really care. Someone who would put 101% of effort in to care for me. but such person doesnt exsist anymore. But without anyone to be there I'll be stronger. and YES i'll do it without any friends help . (:

2011-05-15T13:42:00.000-07:00

I'm at fault for telling such stuff. I know you must be thinking that I said it all out cause of revenge. If you think 7 years is not enough for you to know me then It'll be a goodbye to this friendship. My main motive was to let you know he isnt a good guy! If you think it doesn't hurt when Tx told you everything then you're wrong. Till now I'm still not over it. Why must it be you? If you think I carrying well now then you're wrong. You never know how much it hurt when Qian came and blame me. When betrayed Edmond. Main motive was to not let you stop lingering over such a guy. When I need someone, Pohleung didn't even message me, How could I confide to him, Tx came and argue with me, Yv was busy watching her show. You know how the feeling was. Friends arent there for me, Boy-friends arent there for me too. What I should I do ?

2011-05-04T15:23:00.000-07:00

i miss you. miss you. miss you.
When I dance all the faces seems to look like you.
When I saw your friend I told him I miss you.
Why do I keep thinking of you?
Everybody ask me not to, but why I keep doing it .
I miss calling you Bee, miss hugging your pregant tummy.
Miss seeing your stupid bagey.
i cant carry on typing anymore, real tired. Still waiting for your call .

2011-05-03T14:36:00.000-07:00

I've decided to put my life back together. I know it's hard to do it without you, but I know I can.
You are my life, I'll never stop loving.
I dont want you to destroy my life so I'll carry on happily without you while waiting for you to be back.
It hurts so much, so much that no words could explain how hurt I'm feeling.
Thou it hurts but I'll still live happily.
I don't wish that everybody will blame you, so I've got to continue being happy.
I still remember the sacrifice I've made for you, carrying the KOIs from tamp all the way to 85 to give you.
Buying the cream for you, How much you wants me to change I'm willing to.
Willing to give up everything for you.
I remember I once told you, you'll be my last. I mean it. I really do.
I miss everything you did for me, buying hello kitty's biscult and chocolate for me when I had no appetite to eat.
Came all the way down to my area to look for me.
Getting jealous of me saying other guys good looking.
Getting jealous of a silly message.
Singing songs to me.
Thou it hurt alot but I know I cant show it to you, wouldnt want to stress you that much.
Now I'll be just a friend, caring for you.
Just like this I'll be contented enough already.
1604, stx. <3

2011-05-02T14:26:00.000-07:00

Why do I love you so much, I ask myself.
You told me you wants to be with me forever, but you left.
You ask me never to leave you, I didn't.
I put down my pride, did you pride down your's.
Do you still remember we said we would get married?
You said I was a gift from heaven to you but did you treasure?
You said I'll never be alone, but now alone.
Hand in hand we walked side by side everyday.
I am I too naive to believe every words you said?
I choose to change but did you choose to accept?
You said if I'm happy you'll be happy, but now I'm sad, are you ?
You said you only got me in your heart but now I'm not.
You said always remember that you'll always love me, but what happen now?
I made the sacrifice that I always went down to your workplace just to accompany you.
That I did the chores when I'm allergied to dust.
You said you would work it out, but did you?
You said I'm your shooting star, that's why you love me so much.
You said you wouldnt want me to leave, but you choose to leave first.
I'm sorry I couldnt give up, I'll still love you.
I'll still wait.
Always loving, Always waiting.
STX

It don't really matters anymore

2011-04-13T01:33:00.000-07:00

Every girl deserve every right to be loved and dote on.

Just like, How I wish you would sent me home to my doorstep daily.

How I wish we could take a bus home everyday.

How I wish you just sent a little sweet message daily.

How I wish you would request to wake me up instead of me waking you up.

How I wish when I wake up I'll see your messages.

How I wish you wouldn't say single's the best, cause I wanna be with you.

2011-02-28T03:15:00.000-08:00

Hey! Peeps (:

Busy with work and stuff so I couldn't blog much.

Everybody see life in a different point of view but what I think is that you don't have to be pretty, rich or whatsoever to be happy.

Small little gesture will just make me feel contented.

Replying on the anonymous comment:

Thanks for your opinion.

I've got true friends, they are ugly but they was there for me.

I've also got pretty babes, but were they there for me?

& If you do wanna tell me all this can just simply call me.

Sent me a message in facebook. I don't wish you that you're continuing being such a coward hiding behind the computer and comment.

Anyway, Thanks!

2010-11-04T07:47:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday Bernard !
Despite work the next day I still head down to Bernard's Celebration.
Left early for home to rest . (:
Work was damn boring today. So little customer .
After work, reach home to wait for Baby (:
But somehow had some misunderstand.
He still head down and with ice-creams !
He wishes me a 2nd month (:
I love you baby !

Pictures

2010-10-31T09:48:00.000-07:00

Happy Halloween !
Decided to upload my blog, cause I caught Baby viewing other's blog.
I was like my Blog you don't wanna read you go read other's.
He was like complaining that I didn't upload .
On Friday, Baby got to book out and he came down to fetch me to Pasir Ris .
We went for Escape's Halloween Celebration.
Waited for the Private's Ship for like 1 hour then wanted to go for Palm reading .
But closing soon, so we had to leave.
Walk down to Ehub wanted to try on XRider but was late again.
Baby and me head down to Kallang for Prata.
Then back Jurong.

Saturday.
Wanted to head down Bugis for some shopping but it was rainning .
So we stayed home till 7 then head back jurong.
Meet Freddy at Pioneer MRT station, then head down to Powerhouse.
Waited for Zhiqian at the Linkway .
Walked in to find Baby's friend, Xiaohei .
Didn't know that Xiaohei was Zhiqian's friend, small world.
Xiaohei had been waiting to go in for 2 hours, Powerhouse full house.
Changed to Burberry.
Left at 3 then back home.

Sunday.
Woke up late today, can't make it for pizza hut. ):
Stayed home till Baby's book in .

Wanna thank baby for taking care of me .
Sorry for giving you such nonsense.
I love you ttm !
It hurts to see you so sad .
Cheer up my precious ! (:

Pictures

Second RoyPehYuCheng (:

2010-09-22T07:56:00.000-07:00

2010-09-19T11:39:00.000-07:00

To RoyPehYuCheng .
You are the one who taught me to forgive and love .
No matter how tired you are, you still brought me to Jurong Point to get my make-up remover .
When I said I wanted to head down to (Sentosa, Ikea, Jurong Bird Hill, Movies) you brought me there .

Thou you ain't by my side to accompany, to cheer me up .
You were there for me.
My surroundings disappoint me, you call just to cheer me up .
Letting me have all the decisions made (:

Don't worry, the Queen size bed won't be empty .
No matter what you are doing, you still remembered which ever I've just said .
I will never find anyone else like you!
I love you !

2010-09-12T08:23:00.000-07:00

Haven't been touching the lappy for like 2 days.

Friday, 10th September 2010
Meet up with Sharina at Jurong, Xiaopang came down to fetch me.
Went shopping at Jurong Point.
Then down to Safra, waited for Baby to come.
Back down to ToaPayoh, Girlf's house with Baby .
Had dinner then back home. (:

Saturday, 11th September 2010
Meet Baby at ToaPayoh, took a train with Baby.
First time train-ing with Baby, he was wearing his SAF uniform so, no body contact . LOLS.
Then back to his house, nervous with Baby's mummy around.
But she's a nice lady, damn friendly .
Slack till bout 9, went down to rent FAME.
Then to Redhill to Granddad's house, Baby waited downstairs for me.
Baby, and Family head down to Ah Chew Dessert .
Packet for Bran and Nicole too .
Down to Bran's house for Movie Session.
Baby, fell asleep half way through the movie. He must be tired .
But after movie we still head down to Si Wai to meet Baby's friends.
They having Prawning session (:
After that back home (:

Sunday,12th September 2010
Woke up at 3 and then slack with Baby till he book in .
Then took a train back home.
Without Baby here with me is so BORED !
Awaiting for Saturday !

Pictures . (:

My Baby !

Dad and I

My Brother !

Sharina and Me (:

Nicole's gift for Baby (:

Cindy and I

2010-09-09T22:40:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday to my Baby Roy Peh !

Despite the sickness I'm fighting, I head down to Jurong as early as 2pm to Xinlong house .
Brought the materials at Toa Payoh then did Baby birthday present at Xinlong house .
We started doing from 2 to about 7 .
Head down to Baby house, wanted give him a surprise but I was too suspicious .
So he tried to trick me and I fall for him trick .
Went up to Baby's house then waited for Baby to bath and have his dinner, watch finish the 9pm show down to meet Bran, Nicole and Jacq .
Anyways, Thanks Nicole for the gift . That was a great idea (:
Waited for other of his friends to reach .
Then down to Illuma for movie .
Watched Cats and Dogs . After Movie back down to 615 for my Mee Tai Bak . (:
All went back home, I wants to head down to Jurong Bird Hill so Baby brought me there .
Chatted till 5 then head back home (:
I love my Baby to the max !
A very sweet guy I have here, sorry but I ain't promoting . (:

2010-09-07T14:32:00.000-07:00

Long time since I last blog . (:
Woke up at 4, then head down to Aljunied .
Stayed there till 12 then back to Toa Payoh .
Down to Kevin's house to study .
Till 3 cabbed down to Balestier to have Bak Ku Teh .
After Bak Ku Teh back to Kevin house .
Watched movie then back home.
Sleeping soon .
Exam tomorrow at 8.00 . Shag .

2010-08-03T07:40:00.000-07:00

Quarrelled with Boyf again, because of some silly stuff.
Had been sleeping late for days, couldn't sleep well.
There's something the whole world doesn't know but YuZhiQian knows.
I do really wanna say it all out, but I couldn't
I don't have to courageto say it all out.
Anyways, My birthday's coming and N-level is also coming.
Had to really buck up in my studies, no sleeping in classes already (:

2010-07-31T09:12:00.000-07:00

As usual still busy with school and Boyf.
On Friday,
Had LifeSkills, went over to EastCoast to celebrate school's don't know how many anniversary.
Thou, it's was raining but all of us had a fun time together.
After LifeSkills, cabbed down to Boyf's Grandma house to celebrate her birthday.
Sat there till about 8 then Boyf sent me back home.
Had a long meaningful chat with him for not long & Boyf went back home.
On Saturday,
Went for tuition, then down to Boyf house.
After that Daddy came and fetch me to Unncle's house to celebrate Granddad's birthday.
Back home.
This few days, got pissed by this sickening girl .
Just some girl with a itchy pussy trying to hook up with Boyf.
Anyways, for your damn bloody info.
No matter what you do, he's still mine . (:
Please take a look at your bloody character, apperance & the overly high hornyness before you ever laid hands on my Boyf.

2010-07-29T09:22:00.000-07:00

It's been so long since i last blog.
Kindda busy this few days, with studies.
Can't even really remember when was my last post.
Anyways, just so busy this few days.
Just ending here with some loves to boyf.
You're my greatest gift that I had ever wanted .

2010-07-26T07:39:00.000-07:00

25 July 2010
Woke up early, despite the liqour .
Still could wake up, Just couldn't sleep well this few days.
Play-ed the comp till 5 then went down to meet Zhiqian, Cindy, Kevin and Bernard.
Play pool then back home (:

26 July 2010
Woke up late again, got no choice .
Have to take Mrt, but meet up with Kevin & Gavin for breakfast.
Reached school, studied real hard.
Every 5 minutes I would yawn once but I still perserver on (:
But till Maths, came that terrible headache.
When up to buy panadol brought my phone along but Mrs Ng asked me to put in back into back .
Damn ridiculous !
Took bus back home, slack till bout 5 .
Went over to meet Zhiqian, Had dinner at Subway.
Then went over to Mac to study. Till about 8.30. (:
Yay ! I'm left with 22 more days. (:

2010-07-25T01:24:00.000-07:00

Friday; 23 July 2o1o
School ended early today, went over to Kevin house then down to Girl's Home to report.
After reporting went down to Plaza Sing to meet up with peeps.
Catch The Blood Pledge . Not a very nice show, got scared by the peoples beside me !
After movie went over to Parklane's Mac for dinner.
Then back home.
Zhiqian and Kevin came over to my place , then down to Mac to have supper.
Then played catching , back home. exhasted.

Saturday; 24 July 2010
Was damn tired, but still went for tuition.
After tuition went down to Pearl Centre with peeps to acc them to do their tatoos.
Then down to Grand link to Sing K.
Then to beauty world to have dinner.
After dinner took a bus back home.
Reached home, slacked awhile down to Upp Thomson to celebrate Dewei's birthday.
Then Boat Quay . Saw Jimmy (:
After that back home.

2010-07-22T05:46:00.000-07:00

Almost late for school today, too bad only had 2 hours of sleep !
Talk with Zhiqian till like around 4 plus then head of to sleep .
School wasn't the same cause Ms loke had MC .
So there's some changes on the time table.
After school head back home, learn Dota.
Shock rights ? I always hate guys who played Dota-s but now I'm learning.
Reason being: To next time spent some computer time with G if we were to be back together.
Stop asking me to move on and find a better one.
There's no better one anymore.
Even if G will to be the worst I still won't let him go .
I had never been so firm, so desperate over someone before.
Even if he will never come back to my side, I would still lie to myself and said he would.
So after some Dota-ing, head down to meet ZhiWei & Sherrlyn .
Slack, to wait for Kevin.
Accompanied Sherrlyn to the doctor, then back home (:

I will always believe . . . . .

2010-07-21T06:07:00.000-07:00

School finishes at 2 today, meet twin in school.
Walk together to Mrt, then down to Bukit Batok to meet Keng Ann.
Then we both went to fetch my darling Blood, waited outside her school.
Waited for like 1 hour plus, then after that headed to Blood house to slack.
Daddy came over to fetch me at 6 plus.
Head home !

You still leads your life happily, so why can't I ?
I'm happy that you could move on, but on the other side sad cause without me you still could be so happy.
I had never regretted going into this relationship with you.
Cause you made me learn,
Learn that things don't always go my way.
Learn that my sarcarism do hurt my friends and love ones.
Learn how to let the one you love most go, just to see him happy .
Thou, you had not seen much of my changes but I felt that I had grown mature.
Thanks, thanks for all these while for not giving up on me (:

2010-07-21T04:51:00.000-07:00

17 July 2010
Had to attend school's flag day.
But after flag day, went town with school mates.
Cine, wanted to catch a movie but we were too late .
The Blood Pledge tickets were sold out . ):
So we headed down to Marina Square to watch the fireworks.
After fireworks headed back home .

Pictures

2010-06-12T02:33:00.000-07:00

So near yet so far, I really don't know what you are thinking.
How I wish you could just forgot whatever I've done and just hug me.
How I wish I could turn back time .
Why must all this happened ?
Why must you leave me ? It's all my fault .
I can'r srop the tears from falling off my face, it just hurt so much.
I don't have the mood to do whatever I should be doing.
Just wanting to stay inside the room with you.
Just to see your face, feel your presence.
Come back to me please ?
I just felt so helpless . What must do ?

2010-06-11T20:45:00.001-07:00

Why must you delete our memories ?
Why must you do this to me?
I had just pick myself up again and you just let me fall
Why had all this happened ?
One silly mistake and you said I didnt change.
Why must you break your promise?
Why am I in this state that I don't even understand the meaning of living ?
Don't you know how much I love you ?
Don't you know I will not let you go ?
Don't you know that I can't foget you ?
No matter where you are the picture of you still linger.
It wont fade no matter how much I tell myself .
Do you know it's suffering without you here?
Where are you? I miss you, my dearest.
Why is all is all this happening ?
What must I do ? I just felt so helpless .
Where am I going to head next ?
Is it all my fault ? if it is, what must I do ?
Tell me! Could you just give me a hug and tell me you're always here,
Dont leave me, please?
Stop this nightmare please, please ?
Be here for me please ?
I miss you ! gavinyapweizhi
I don't know how to carry on le.
It's all my fault, I shouldn't have pester you.
I'm sorry.

Big Ass - Foon (Eng Subs)

2010-05-15T19:38:00.000-07:00

Set alarm at 7 , to wake alvin up but slept till 8.
Whole eyes red, contact lense case-ing still with G.
Actually wanted to meet Cindy & Zhiqian to Grandlink to Sing.
But time abit crop up, so couldn't meet up with them .
Anyways, I wanna thanks Zhiqian & Cindy for being here for me .
I'm very glad at least there are people who would be there.
Without you both I don't know how I could survive .
Thanks for making my day at least a little better.

2010-05-15T14:39:00.000-07:00

Went out with Zhiqian, yishun safra;plaza sing;ecp then home.
Had a nice day, but I wasn't happy.
Without you how could I be happy ?
The moment I step into the lift, back to reality & this feeling sucks.
I've got no mood to eat, surprisingly I haven't been eating for the whole day .
At my toughest moment where were you ?
If you really still love, you won't even mind getting hurt again.
But I know that I won't hurt you again, just one last chance, will you?
You harden your heart just to protect yourself, I thought you are always the one who protect me. just like a guardian angel.
I called you just to hear your voice, 1 second and it brighten up everything.
Letting you go is like letting my whole life go.
Every place I went reminds me of you.
Plaza sing, where we brought our Valentine's Day gift for each other.
East Coast Park, the stone where we sat side by side to feel each other's heart beat.
How could I let go, when each place I went reminds me of you .

2010-05-15T03:01:00.000-07:00

從前的我不懂你犧牲多大，為我失去朋友不講，還放棄了所有夢想，覺得沒怎樣，不會將心比心去想，讓你慢慢慢慢失去了希望．能不能夠再給我機會好好的愛你．我會仔細的聆聽．你對我說的一言一語．我會學會去控制脾氣，不讓你傷心．對你好好的去珍惜，請你相信我的心，還是愛你我想再重來一下，回到過去彌補你的傷．沒那種事，怎麼做才能夠停止，後悔竟傷你如此，不再放肆．為何總到失去才懂得難過，當你在我身邊的時候總是為我默默守後，都是因為我的錯，錯過這難得的擁有，就讓你愛我的心慢慢流走

I will be waiting, My Dearest .
I will change, don't worry .
You will always have this heart of mine.
You will be my last.
The last who I last put my lips on.
The last who I would hug.
The last who I will make sacrifices for.

2010-05-08T20:17:00.000-07:00

I know you're sad but I'm sorry.
Like I said in the previous post, this relationship is beyond salvation .
How I wish I could put my ego down and ask you to stay.
I couldn't, I love you but I still want my freedom.
It doesn't mean that freedom will be more important than you.
It doesn't also mean that I would choose freedom than you .

2010-05-08T12:36:00.000-07:00

Went seeshaa with friends .
Slack around then head back home.
We ended this relationship just like that, i know this relationship is beyond salvation.
But stubornly i still wanna cling on it, i still love you !
That's all I can say! Whatever you did I had never forget.
It's all kept inside my heart (:
I will still love you !

Pictures !

2010-04-24T17:16:00.000-07:00

Heys ! was kindda busy so dont have much time with the comp.
Overdue photos ):

2010-04-10T22:28:00.000-07:00

Dearest Happy Birthday !

it's been so long since i last blog, kindda busy.
Stay home almost the whole day.
Went over to Marina to get Dearest his birthday present (:
Then Family & I celebrate for Dearest his birthday .
Anyways, just a short post here.

Dearest, one year older be more mature yeas ?
I know you are, so don't act like one small kid.
I'm sorry I can't celebrate your birthday with you at your Grandma house.
But I know we can still celebrate many of our birthdays together.
Just enjoy yourself there.
I really love you!

My Birthday boy

His birthday present.

2010-03-24T01:15:00.001-07:00

Heys, Peeps.
Now at Cyber Wellness, sorry for only posting pictures only.
Anyways, Homeleave ended quite fast.
So i don't think i've got time to update also due to my stubborness of watching Xia Yi Zhan Xin Fu .
So Celebrate Mummy's birthday early, Anyways, Happy Birthday Mum !
So school as usual, boring life.
But I've got no choice, I've got to study hard for a bright future.
So most probably I will be coming out this week. }
So wait for me guys (:

2010-03-13T11:22:00.000-08:00

2010-02-20T21:49:00.000-08:00

A big Hellos to all (:
So Daddy came fetch me then went back home to wear my contact lenses then walked up to MCYS for tuition.
Its was quite fun actually. After tuition then head back home to change then down to meet Sherrlyn, Kelvin, Weitian & Nicolas .
Head down to TeoHeng to Sing, then down to Marina Square to play pool.
Deares wanted to buy me a dress but too bad, I've got too much dress at home le.
Then went back to Serangoon to Uncle house, they played the lantern thingy. so damn scary
Back home change then down to Dearest house. (:

Took a bus back home then head down to 6th uncle house then back home.
Now waiting for Dearest to come my house, heading down Bishan to buy our piggy bank.
Meeting Cindy & Weitian at ToaPayoh (:
After Bishan come back home then change then Dearest gonna sent me back (:

Sadded it's a Weekday tomorrow, monday blues ):
I'm missing Dearest every minute ! (:
I'm waiting for my 3Days2Night !
Dearest, you're the only one who would let me go my way.
Thou, you always bully me but you still dote on me alot.
But GavinYapWeiZhi is the Biggest Bully in the whole universe !
Yet I still love you this MUCH !

2010-02-14T16:15:00.000-08:00

Happy Chinese New Year!
As usual daddy came and fetch for Homeleave.
Went back home change then meet Dearest at my house there.
Head down to Plaza Sing, to buy the Valentine Gift for each other.
Dearest & Kevin went their own way, while me & Sherrlyn went searching.
I brought a Puzzle & A Photo Frame for him, While Dearest brought me a Big HelloKitty cushion.

That was real sweet of him (:
Then back to Grandpa house to have reunion lunch.
After lunch went down to Boon Keng to visit Dearest Grandma .
Cab down to Toapayoh to have reunion dinner again.
Back home, waited for curfew call then sleep.

Did all the bai nian-s, then went back home to meet Dearest again.
We both head down to Hougang to meet Cherry & all. Somehow a Gathering.
After the gathering then head down to tamp to wait for Daddy to fetch me down.
Dearest, accompany me too (:
Then down to Bedok to bai nian, then go back Toapayoh to catch a Movie , Lightning Thief !
Cab to Sherrlyn house, then cab back home.

Went over Dearest house, slack.

Went down to Bukit Merah View to grandpa's house.
Then to Redhill to another relative's house.
Dearest, waited at Redhill Mrt for quite a sometime, then we both head back home.
Just Top-up my EZ-link card, now that silly Dearest of my is beside me.
Just plain-ly looking at what I'm typing !
Dearest, is gonna send me back later (:

Thou time spend with you is like very long but times flies when I'm with you.
I do enjoy every single moment with you, how I wish I could stop the clock from ticking.
Thanks for every lil things you've done for me ! I will never forget & will appreciate toos (:
I will remember the promises we've made to each other. August ! (:
I love you, my Dearest Gavin Yap Wei Zhi !

I know you guys have been waiting for this, but i'm sorry I can't upload the rest.
Pictures

2010-02-07T00:36:00.000-08:00

Hellos, I'm so glad homeleave wasnt cancelled.
Head down to Serangoon for uncle's birthday & house warming.
Then meet Gavin at Serangoon then head down to Toapayoh to meet sherrlyn.
then head down to bugis, slacked. Meet Wanyu, Cindy & Jonas.
Bought one m)phosis shoe, took neoprints toos (:
Then back to Serangoon, lion dance came.
Back home slack, then head down to Gavin house.
Drink not much, but still drunk.
The other part of the story I shan't say much.
Anyways, thanks for planning it all !
But 7th is also a nice date, I will really take this relationship serious.
I know you're trying to peep but I just want to tell you that I really love you & never want to lose you.
I know it's hard when you're in this position but lets prove to my parents they are wrong about us oks !
Let's go thru this hurdle together !
I love you, Gavin Yap Wei Zhi !
Back home, Change and head down to Popular.
Boyf's accompany, I really appreciate what you had done but it really hurts to see you spent your money on me.
Boyf is gonna bring me back to Girls home later. <3
I appreciate every lil sacrifices you've done for me (:

Pictures !

Gavin Yap Wei Zhi, I love you manys !

Still sleeping like pigs

2010-01-31T01:14:00.000-08:00

Pictures agains. I dont think I have the time to blog.
So, I'll let pictures do the talking.

Kelvin, Sherrlyn's boyf

Gavin (:

Cindy & me

Jonas & Cindy.
He loves bullying girls

Ahdenz & me

Us again

Sherrlyn & me

Cindy, Jonas, Sherrlyn & me

snap shots

Touch students

Sherrlyn & me

Grandma & me

Trevor house

2010-01-30T16:37:00.000-08:00

hung up the phone tonight,
Something happened for the first time,
Deep inside it was a rush, what a rush,
Cause the possibility that
You would ever feel the same away about me,
It’s just too much, just too much
Why do I keep running from the truth,
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized,
And I just got to know

Do you ever think, when you’re all alone,
All that we can be, where this thing can go,
Am I crazy or falling in love,
Is it real or just another crush
Do you catch a breath, when I look at you,
Are you holding back, like the way I do,
Cause I’m tryin’, tryin’ to walk away
But I know this crush aint’ goin’ away, goin’ away

Has it ever cross your mind when we’re hangin’,
Spending time girl,
Are we just friends, is there more, is there more,
See it’s a chance we’ve gotta take,
Cause I believe that we can make this into
Something that will last,
Last forever, forever

Do you ever think, when you’re all alone,
all that we can be, where this thing can go,
Am I crazy or falling in love,
Is it real or just another crush
Do you catch a breath, when I look at you,
Are you holding back, like the way I do,
Cause I’m tryin’, tryin’ to walk away
But I know this crush aint’ goin’ away, goin’ away

Why do I keep running from the truth,
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized,
And I just got to know

Do you ever think, when you’re all alone,
all that we can be, where this thing can go,
Am I crazy or falling in love,
Is it real or just another crush
Do you catch a breath, when I look at you,
Are you holding back, like the way I do,
Cause I’m tryin’, tryin’ to walk away
But I know this crush aint’ goin’ away, goin’ away

2010-01-30T09:41:00.000-08:00

Hellos Peeps!
Homeleave was cancelled cause the five of us got caught smoking
Hahas, we did a punishment on Sunday too.
I shan't elaborate much, anyways school was fun !
With 6 of us, it's even better.
But still can't cope with Bio & Geog.
Quarrelled with mum, head back home then Daddy came fetch me.
Head down to Godma's house, Her Babyboy full month.
Then down to Granddad house to celebrate his birthday (:
Now home, just finished chatting with Nicolase, Valerie & Gavin (:
I'm going GAGA !

2010-01-16T23:18:00.000-08:00

Hell0s, I didn't sleep suprisingly I'm not tired anymore.
I've crying for the past few hours, due to my stubborness of watching the 下一站, 幸福 .
Anyways, It's a damn nice show.
I've just finish chatting with Celine's mum, I miss you Girlfriend.
We will study hard together for our N's, I promise your mum I'm gonna quit SMOKING . For tha sake of you, my dear girl (:
I wouldn't want to influence you, I promise Hand in Hand we will lead a different life not like what we used to do.
July isn't very long, I'll try to make the effort to call/visit your mum.
Anyways, When I left for DRS Blood was crying like nobody's business.
Blood, when you read this you'll be discharge.
I won't forget every single promise we've made.
Iloveyou (:
Peeps, I'm still kindda lazy to Link. sorry. Next Homeleave I promise :D

2010-01-15T19:09:00.000-08:00

Hellos ! Guys I'm out again.
I've transfered to DRS on the 14th, and started school at 15.
Anyways, school was somehow fun have some good class mates too (:
So I will be coming out every week, but if i doesn't behave then thats too bad ):
So now I'm 1/2 dead, I went shopping with mummy at town from 1 till 6.
Brought 1 dress ! (:
head down to granddad house to have dinner, they were surpise to see me.
Then we down to Great World City, Brought 3 skinnys from Zara (:
Then back home, wanted go watch movie but Jerry was busy.
So I slack at home, then Jerry came down to find me.
Chatted for awhile, then He head back home.
Now watching 下一站, 幸福.
Still very tired, I think after Episode 2 I will be off to my LalaLand.

Peeks, Finally the Photos !

2009-12-20T00:15:00.000-08:00

I'm sorry guys! I'm in a rush. wait till my next homeleave then I will upload it all (:

Homeleave was push to 3rd week. Fate wasn't on my side.
Mr Lee departed singapore on 19 for indonesia ):
So mum was late again, went to had me face done then headed down to Fareast to buy new year clothes .
Dresses , dad didnt approve with it . He said it was too mature
Meet up with My Dearest Girl, CHAN SHUYI.
Hadn't been seeing her for such a long time, imissyou !
After shopping head down to granddad house.
Back home, use comp till 5.
Slept till 8, was late.
So I cabbed down to girls home to fetch my sweetheart.
Took a bus down to Grandma house, spent some time with her then head off to Bedok to meet up with YUZHIQIAN!
That baby, is a lucky girl .
Boyf brought her a icecream phone for christmas present
Then we rushed down to tamp1 to meet up with Cherry, Cindy, Pohyng, Teckping and Yiting.
Soon Winnie came, then Qiqi then Madeline and Shiluan.
Then Miaoling and Sherilyn came, Finally Junfong came ! Info this is all girls outing .
Played arcade, smoke !
then took a bus down to tamp safra to pool .
Waited for Parents to come, now I'm home.
Hohos, wrote terry a letter >.<
Anyways, Wenli will be coming out on 31 December.
Just nice for count down.
got to go bath, tatas for now.

Again a sincerely apologies for not uploading !

With lotsa love;
Xinning

2009-11-28T07:51:00.000-08:00

Hellos ! it's been one months since i last update.
I didn't promote to Band 2, they took out my past VR.
But I did behave, ok !
During 2-6 November 16 girls were choosen for the OBS (Outward Bound ) camp
I learn many things, realise lots toos !
It's a priceless exprience, i swear i will go for it again.
Mummy came late, I saw Cherry & Teckping.
Didn't know they were here to fetch me, so we took bus home while mummy & godma head to other places to eat.
Bathed then head down to Bugis, meet Shiluan at Mrt.
Pohyng meet us at bugis with jonas & Cherry's friends.
Head down to iluma, while smoking at the staircare kimleong from Bendemeer called me.
Didn't realise he still remember me (: my lil crushie.
Meet Terry at arcade then we all head down to burger king.
Pohyng messed her sleeve, so i accompany her to LongJohn to clean it up.
Saw Maisarah, Aishah, Juliana, Ain , Tatia & Saliha !
Slacked till 7 then cabbed down to Jiujiu house, had dinner; played with sean.
then head down to mount faber to see the tall tall christmas tree but didnt get the chance to take a picture of it.
But in the end head down to Henderson Wave !
while walking up this guy was put light sticks on the floor (WILL YOU MARRY ME ?), holding some ballon and flowers.
Wanted take picture of it but kindda weird huh?
Then head back home, chatted on the phone with Zhiqian.
Didn't go out cause was too tired.
Going Church tomorrow with Terry (:
After Church going have lunch with grandma and cousins.

Pictures paints a thousand words.

OBS Cert

Nitec in Service Skills ( office)

Got 6a's !

Joseph kor Kor

Wesley (pardon me for unglam-s)

Chan family (:

Orchards lights

mummy

Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone.

Art lesson with Sean (:

My Dearest Dad

Mummy, Carebear & me

Gonggong a.k.a ATM

Carebear & me (Joseph extra)

Bring me back to my childhood.

Anyone willing to buy all this for me for christmas ?

Pohyng & vivian chan !

Yeas, same people (:

Shiluan, Pohyng & me

Shiuan, Me, Cherry, Teckping & Pohyng

2009-09-26T21:20:00.000-07:00

BORRINGG ! So damn bored larhs !
Not going to watch movie le, cause it's kindda late but I'm still waiting for Zhiqian to wake up.
I'm like so irritated now, cause I want DISCHARGE.
I want to go back to my usual night life, just one folly mistake and thats it !
Was damn bored until I went into my old friendster and browse thru to photo.
I miss every part of it larhs.
Thinking later want go back girls home makes me wanna abscond !
But I won't I won't I won't !
Just nicely serve finish your sentence and stop all of it le.
When I step into girls home, I will change.
Change for the better, talk less, try to dont do illegal things !
Be a good girl, and promote to band 2.
I don't want to go back once a month only, I dont believe I can't.

PICTURES :D

taken at geylang with zhiqian

CelineTangShuMei; girlfriends
I miss you, waiting for your release.
I just know that one day we will both be united.
You're irreplaceable.

I miss those times with you, all your nonsense.
Thou we ain't in contact now but I know one day we will still find each other.
And when that days come I swear I won't let both of us lost contact.

the best friend I ever had, helped me out when I need you the most.
I hope that I will have to time to meet you, and just spent one day like how we used to do in the past.

Jason & Friends.
All of you gave me the most fun & wonderful roundings I've ever had.
Jason, you've already build up a sweet memories of us in my heart.
I will always remember every lil things/words you have done/said.

2007

2008

2005

GraceLimYanPing

I'm missing you right now! But when I think of the image of you & her playing together.
It hurts so much, everybody ask me to understand that you are just so friendly.
Seriously speaking, I feel more like a friend to you.
What I see is that you are even closer to your friend then me, if you are more comfortable when you are with your friend then I would rather choose to be your friends.
You know that kq like you but yet you are so friendly, you might lead her on.
I always used harsh words is to let you know I cared.

Please thank god that at least I'm jealous, If I'm not jealous which means I don't care le.
UOYEVOLI

2009-07-25T13:54:00.000-07:00

25 July, was out from homeleave (:
Mummy and Godma came to fetch me, her tummy is getting bigger (:
I hope it's a girl, had pepper lunch for lunch then went to united square to shop.
Back home I make-up then Vivian.t & Shiluan came up my house to wait for me this xiaojie.
Walked down to mac to meet Juliana, then down to Coslab to pluck my eyebrows.
All of them left so I meet wesley go alter my jeans.
Walk back home then I meet Adrian at my house there.
Headed down to Tiong bahru Plaza to meet my Wifey, Then down to granddad house.
Before going up, chatted with Adrian for awhile.
After Granddad house, back home.
Did nothing, wanted to call terry but I dont know why in the end never chat with him.
Actually wanted to go meet Jonathan but too far kindda lazy.
Has been using the comp from 1 till now.
Will be going down to temple to pray later, porpor's death anniversary.
Then will go down see Nainai, then will meet my padi at novena square.
Mummy also brought me the top that I wanted from mango lerhs.
She went to many mango shop to just get me that top, was so touched !
Thanks Mummy, Thank for your unconditional love towards me (:
Thanks Adrian for fetching me down to Granddad house, thanks for the company too (:

This are those pictures on my last homeleave, the cycling trip.
It totally suck, that park connector is all fake !

Vivian.t & me

Shiluan & me

倔強說不痛假裝什麼傷都沒有

倔強抬起頭決不讓眼淚往下流

2009-07-11T15:56:00.000-07:00

Hellos, Was out for homeleave again (:
Mum came and fetch me then we chiong back home to bath.
Then both of us head down to town to SHOP !
Wanted to buy flip-flops from m)phosis but none caught my eye.
So headed down to Zara, then tops weren't what I wanted so went to take a look at Mango.
Wanted to buy one blouse and one top but the blouse dont have my size. was kindda sway.
But mummy promise me to buy the top for me (:
Far East was our next designation, mum brought one grey skinnys & the black top I've always wanted. (:
Then down to Uncle house to celebrate aunts birthday then back home
Reach home Jonathan wanted to meet me but I think I should really do what I've said PACK MY ROOM.
So didnt meet him, I started packing at 12 bahs, Was like so tiring lorhs !
Alone somemore, while packing I was blasting my music.
Then not long, police nodd on my house door, they say got people complain say very noise.
Lols, Joseph everytime blast like nobody's business nothing happen then me police come up .
Arghhs ! Ended the packing at about 6 plus (:
Went down with Wesley to smoke (:
Bathed then now blogging (: waiting for terry to eat finish then chat with him on the phone (:
Might be going down to cycle later see how's the wheather, gonna cycle the Park Connector.
Then also going down to Jurong Safra, then maybe going tamp1
Here's some pictures Before & After

AFTER

IN PROGRESS

BEFORE

Shag -.-

2009-06-27T22:52:00.000-07:00

Just woke up took a short nap, Didn't get to have a proper sleep Mum was like nagging the whole day.
Sunday's mood, not good huh ? Joseph ask me to pack the room.
I think I will be packing very soon, I wonder what would Mum's reaction be if I take out all my clothes to wash .hees
Wesley is now learning how to iron his uniform, (:
This is the 2nd time they are quarrelling today, weird !
The house is so NOISY !

2009-06-27T20:41:00.000-07:00

Dear Heavenly Father.......
I want all this to stop now, I hate this feeling.
Early in the morning Mum & Dad quarrelled ! I was so pissed off, the feeling is already so arghhs !
It's not because I don't have enough sleep, it's the surrounding that makes me piss.
I don't wanna go back, whatever you guys can say.
Stupid, or what-so-ever !
You, you & you ! I can't get you outta my head !
I don't want to go back, 2nd time repeating this !
I wanna cry it all out, it's hard to describe all this feeling.
Numb me now ! I need a painkiller!
Sometimes this house makes me feels like home, but sometime it make me want to get out of it right away.
Why can't people be free of worries?
Can I not face the reality? Find a nice place for me to hide, will you ?

2009-06-27T17:33:00.000-07:00

Hellos (:
Mummy & godma came and bring me. Godma's stomach can see difference lerhs.Hopefully is a girl (:
Godma drive Honda fit come, sat on bride's sport seat ! She put us at ubi there then take 59 go home.
Slack awhile then go down toapayoh centre with joseph to buy my contact lense & some personal stuff.
Went back home, changed and head down to Bukit Merah View to have dinner.
Dinner was Teochew porrige, went to NTUC to buy for tomorrow's breakfast (:
Back home waited for curfew call, wanted to meet terry but girl ask me go boatquay.
So I took a cab down, reached at around 2 didnt know they ordered beer.
&&&& I'm not good at drinking beer.
Not even an hour my whole face was red, drank till 4 then around there got alot or pik pak pik pak (:
I don't like! went to coffee shop to have some drinks, then back home.
Was feeling kindda weird, that feeling was horrible ! arghhhs !
Bathed, felt better
Talked on the phone, with terry.
Off he went to sleep, so here I am blogging.
Actually wanted to go cycling with wesley but I think he's too tired so I'm gonna stay at home today (:
Going back later, actually meeting Padi later but I think I can't make it & theChan's still need my accompany.
Dad now doing the room for wesley(:
Next homeleave will be on the 11 July , my Nitec exam will be on the September.

Photos taken last week.

能不能不爱了, 因为爱太痛了

我痛得快死了, 却无法把你忘

2009-06-20T19:16:00.000-07:00

Hellos (:
Was out for my Extra HomeLeave (:
Dad came and fetch me, stayed at home till 5 plus head down to FarEast to take Gary's Present.
Then down to Katong to Celebrate Father's Day with mother's side de family (:
Back home, waited for curfew call.
Chatted on the phone through out, then did some packing up.
Heading down to girlf's house later on, then going uncle's house to celebrate Father's Day (:
Next week will be coming out again (:

Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never knew.

2009-06-13T22:44:00.000-07:00

Hellos (:
3rd time today blogging! went in to dad&mum's room to sleep.
Went to find Gary at his house there to take the braclet.Then down to FarEast.
It took so long so I decided to go another day.
Didnt get to visit grandma, she at other places play mahjong.
So boring larhs ! I want abscond larhs ! I want everyday stay at home, I want to turn back time.
I really regret doing all this silly things, It's like so sian1/2 going back to that Heaven!
Whats more I only come out once every 2 weeks, inside the time passes so slow.
Owe people must pay back, left with 1 year 2 months to go !I know I can do it de!
Mummy's going to vietnam this coming saturday, if i got extra homeleave daddy might be coming to bring me.
imissyou !

2009-06-13T16:22:00.000-07:00

Hellos (:
I am so bored now ! Actually wanna have some rest but no place for me to sleep.
lols, any kind soul would let me sleep on their bed ?
Later going meet grandma only, i not going to meet Padi lerhs!
I still got that vomiting feeling, head still hurts.
I want go Celine's house to pass her mother those Text book but I'm lazy larhs !
Might be coming out next week, claimed my extra homeleave lerhs.
Hopefully ms azi will put my extra homeleave on next weeks lorhs.
20th or 27th (:
Sign, this few weeks when I'm inside didnt have the mood to study.
Maybe I'm too into the outside world, I've to stop my procrastinating habit.
I must put aside everything and concentrate on my Goals, 5A's !

2009-05-09T15:56:00.000-07:00

I wanna wish all the mothers a HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY !
May 10 , today is mother's day . From 9pm - till 7.30am .
Was rushing to do for mummy & grandma the pressy for mother's day.
Yestherday went to ToaPayoh Centre to have my eyebrown plucked and brought the so called ingredient for the pressy.
Then headed down to Marine barage but the carpark was full instead we went over to the place got alot alot of boat , but i'm not sure what's the name of the place.
After much sight-seeing with love ones ,headed down to granddad house .Had my dinner and down to TiongBahru Plaza to meet weihe.
I miss her ! Walk around Plaza with 4 plaster on my leg ,reason was I was wearing new high-heels. 爱美不要命！
Took a bus back to granddad house, and went back home to answer curfew call.
Till now I still haven't had a chance to rest my eyes, after all this will be going to fetch grandma to bring her go eat dimsum.
Might be going down with brother, sister & daddy to east coast to cycle or somewhere else to play badminton .

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY

weihe(:

Shaun & me (:

Does he looks like my korkor ?

Daddy's lil girl

Meiling & me (:

Iloveyou (:

2009-04-25T11:33:00.000-07:00

It's been a month since I've last blog , (:
lols , third time coming out for homeleave.
Fortunately , I manage to take some time to upload this photo that I've been wanting to upload from the very first homeleave .
Went to Toapayoh Centre with brother to buy my contact lense , was attracted by two tops couldn't take my eyes off them so I brought it home .
Brought a bottom too , wanted to also buy heels but parents think it's to mature for me .
Headed over to grandad house for dinner , then back to Toapayoh cause me wanna go walk night market (:
Tomorrow going to Celine's house , she wrote letter to meeee ! (:
Then going to 6th uncle house to spent some time with family , then down to FAR EAST .
It's shopping time !

PICTURES

First homeleave- Keppel blablablas

Keppel blablablas

Christmas Presents (:

For Mum (:

Mother's Day Present

Sister brought this for me (:

知要在一遍，然我看你最后一眼

你的眼神，牽動我的霖魂

可否再一遍，　然我感受你的踢溫

你的笑容溫亂我的世界

2009-03-28T13:53:00.000-07:00

Time checked , 5.02am .
Still perservering , eyes can't take it anymore.
Today was my first homeleave , had not seen the world for 7 month .
Stayed home till 5 , Dad brought us to this place near Vivo to take a look at the senery .
Then headed towards uncle's house , gave granddad a surprise . I could see granddad happiness when he saw me .
Had steamboat , Crabs & abalone for dinner , I know they prepared all this is for the sake of me.
After dinner , Aunt off all the light for this earth hour thing .
Then while the lights were off , i was dicusing with Uncle wheather to take Nitec in Customer Service Skill Cert . He encourage me to take up this course , yeaps . Considering still in progress .
Headed to Lorong 5 to buy desert home , supper for the night .
At around 11 ms patma call , curfew called (:
11 till now I 've been surviving with this computer , mum just went to sleep .
I wanna wish mum a HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY !
Aunt & Uncle thank you for your time to prepare those delicious food .
Daddy & Mummy , thanks you both for tolerating my nonsense & so .
This feeling of going back suck , i totally spoilt my mood when it came into my mind .
But I do enjoy every moment spend .